Which Religion is “Real”

I think over my posts I lost focus of my question which is how can people follow a religion when at the same time I find it hard to believe in any “God”. It’s not that I don’t like religion I don’t even dislike it a little bit at all in fact I am envious of it. I wish that I could believe with all my heart that there is something or someone out their looking out for us, taking care of us, and leading us. I just can’t believe in something like that. I do believe there is something out there, how can there not be. The universe can’t just have started with a boom something had to cause that boom and likewise something had to put the thing there that caused that boom. I just don’t know what to believe in. There are too many different ideology’s out there and I haven’t experienced enough of them to know which one I should believe or even if I did know them all I don’t know if I would believe in any of those either. My head is super confused to be honest.